I stand at a crux in my life. In fact, the reality is each and every moment is a crux, a crucial space in time that holds infinite possibilities. It is only a habit of mind that makes us focus on a narrow spectrum of reality that makes us think that we and our world are not touched by a transcendent beauty, power and intelligence. By making conscious contact with infinite Reality we open an access to so much more than what we ordinarily think of as self. By claiming this higher Reality as our own, we become new, whole.
There are many science fiction stories about time travel, going to alternate universes and realities—they can be interesting scenarios with twists and turns, but what remains unchanged is the personality of the individual, the perception of self. That is why simply changing the outer circumstance of life may give a temporary lift or a hit, but it does not create the real kind of change that deep down under we are looking for.
Similarly, the fantasy of being wealthy, famous, and adored by others may seem to promise happiness, but we need only look to the tabloids to see that these attainments do not guarantee the looked for fulfillment. As a comedian said, “I know that money cannot buy happiness, but I would just like to have enough to prove it!” We love our imagined charmed life through shifting our circumstances to resolve our discontent.
God once showed me a previous life in which I had been the governor of an enormous province and lived much like a king. But, even with wealth and total power, I was lonely and unfulfilled. Such experiences in life helped to teach me that real happiness cannot be bought. I, like so many of us, had been programed to believe in the worldly dream of success. It may take many such lifetimes to convince us otherwise, but eventually we come to understand that this world simply cannot satisfy us in the long run.
This realization can bring us to a crises point; if the world cannot do it, and we cannot imagine anything greater than this world, then why exist? And some will take their lives, but that does not work either because we find ourselves right back in a body, facing that moment all over again. At last that emptiness, loneliness, and yearning for something greater leads us to long for that “something more” above this horizontal plane of material existence. That need takes us further than simply an idea there must be a heaven waiting for us at this end of life, for at that point we cannot wait and defer for some hoped for future happiness. It is here and now that we must know the truth.
It is at this moment of realization that we really enter the path to realization. This moment is not the end of our journey, but it is like Winston Churchill said after the British defeated Rommel at Alamein in North Africa, “This is not the end, this is not even the beginning of the end, this is just perhaps the end of the beginning.” However, the clearer we are that this world does not contain what our heart longs for, then the more rapidly we progress on the path. We then continuously remember that while we live and participate in this world, our minds are ever turned toward the transcendent One, each and every moment.
When, through deepened meditation and a purified consciousness you touch the fabric of God, you open to an infinite field of possibilities. Outwardly your life may look much the same; inwardly you are transformed. You now know that the Lord of the universe resides in your heart, a fountain of bliss is ever playing through your spine and brain, universal love flows through your heart, and wisdom-thoughts illumine your mind—in short you have all that your heart truly ever longed for. This makes each moment a crux in your life, because through your divine contact all possibilities reside in you—there can be nothing ordinary or humdrum in your life ever again.