I am God’s Grip, and there is no other place I would rather be. From my late teens God prodded me towards Him, and away from the world. I did not know it was He at the time; in fact I had no faith in any concept of God I knew of then, only that I was restless, and definitely not content with what I saw in the world. That restlessness grew into a deep spiritual pain, and finally in my extremity I turned to God, and He lifted my pain; though later it came back—the shepherd’s dog nipping at me without respite.
Then began the long journey of sadhana in which I had further glimpses of God’s Light and bliss; a training of the mind to stay focused on Him through the techniques my Gurudev had instructed me. Those creaky doors yielded, a bit at a time, opening then closing tight, then opening again, always with the shepherds dog driving me on when I would have rather gone back to sleep. I even resented the shepherd’s dog, thinking why could I not be happy, as others seemed to find happiness in this world? But, thankfully it drove me on, for what I sometimes thought of as a curse then I now see as my greatest blessing.
And many a time I fell, many a time I made mistakes, and suffered the consequences. Unfortunately, not only I suffered, by those around me suffered as well. Even through the Dark Night of my Soul, even through the many mistakes and missteps, Grace found a way through my ignorance, my vanity, lower human desires and indifference. What endless patience God and Guru gave me, never giving up on me, transforming base metal of humanness into gold of Spirit—God and Guru being alchemists extraordinaire.
However many missteps on my part, I never wavered in my desire for God, and gradually that transformation took shape, a new being was born; something far beyond my ability to enact. So, while I was an active participant in the process, I was increasingly very much the witness to the extraordinary forces at work in me. God experience went from very occasional glimpses, then to a most of the time Reality, culminating in an every moment state of being.
Now I live in His grip, God’s power and intelligence flowing through me, and I am witness to what He does in and around me. And I am more humbled than ever before, for the witness in me is in awe of what He is about. There is no life more fully lived than when in Him; His bliss, His grace is ever at work. And what He has shown me, what I most definitely know, is that same spark of Divinity, that same seed of Grace that has grown into a tree, is in every living soul that walks the earth.
Not all will awaken to this transformed life in this lifetime, but there are those destined to live in Him, and shed His qualities to all the earth. As one or two awaken, so that quickens the lives of others, and one or two awaken over there, then there, and on and on it spreads as the world is lifted into greater heights. When a significant minority transforms—not that large of a percentage actually—it will spread all over this earth. Suddenly it will not be about money, power and fame, but about recognizing the Light in one another and in the world itself. Even though the world may be no great support in living a spiritual life at this present time, there is no greater opportunity to be in the vanguard of what is to come—to help lead the way through your own example. For I can tell you from my own experience, there is no greater way to live this life than to be in the grip of God.