Today we mark Mother’s Mahasamadhi Day, the day she chose to consciously exit her human form. As she had already become one with God through her long and difficult Mystical Crucifixion there is no meaning that she only merged with God when she left the body; that she had done long ago. However, when she left the body it meant we had to now seek her out through our own spiritual vision, there was no physical address for us to find her. For those of us who knew this great Soul while in the body, her death was a great loss; for those who never met her in the body, her death was a great loss.
However, she left footprints that you might follow that take you to where she truly dwells, in God-consciousness. When you follow those footsteps you are led aright, and you will know in that day of oneness that what Mother taught is the absolute truth, and that truth sets you free. Mother describes those footsteps in her talks, and here is a beautiful talk from 1961 in which the great master tells of her enormous desire to know God, and her heartbreaking compassion for this world and those who suffer in it. In the end, she assures us, none will be denied because of past errors.
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Death of Ego (Crucifixion). Someone asked once, “What does it mean when it says to go to God the Absolute?” Well, the Absolute God was, is, and always will be. And He has contained within Himself everything that has ever been manifested in this world. And as you climb the spinal stairway of Self‑Realization, going up each step at a time, you come to the point where you want freedom from the ego, where you want the death of the ego to take place.
And as it says in the Bible, the day will come when he who thinks he will kill you will do God a service. And it speaks of the ego within yourself, because you think of yourself always as separated from God. And this separation, this constant cry in your heart, is what makes you unhappy. This is what keeps you bound. And so the day comes when you say, “God, please take me. Reveal Thyself to me. Reveal Thyself to me. Make me see You within me. Make me know that truly God and the kingdom of heaven are within, and that there is none else in this world but Thee, none else.”
And if you will persevere, if you will go through this thing called death, this crucifixion on your own cross, then truly you will have eternal light and you will be lifted up into the arms of your Father. And as you are lifted up, you go beyond all duality.
It is like a top that is spinning at such a high velocity of speed that it seems as though it isn’t moving, and yet it is moving. It is moving more rapidly than anything you can possibly imagine. It seems as though it is still, and yet it has all movement within itself. Thus it is to experience God the Absolute. It is as though there is nothing but you and God in the beginning, and then all of the sudden you realize “I am He; blessed Spirit, I am He.” And your being is filled with bliss, with ecstasy, with rapture, and you are intoxicated as you never dreamed of intoxication. Your whole being has become one of light. And truly all the streets within your kingdom are paved with gold, and the river runs with the nectar of God. And you drink forever of this bliss.
Return to Worldly Consciousness and Service. But you know that you can’t stay there, that you have to come down into this worldly consciousness again and serve God because only through serving can you fulfill your destiny. Many scoff at work, and yet He who refuses the work refuses to take part in this wonderful world of God, this wonderful activity that is going forever and forever closer to Him.
It is difficult to understand this in this day because we hear so much of dissension. We see it all now. We see cruelty done, and yet we must have understanding even of that. And when you have once gone through your crucifixion, when you have risen from the tomb within yourself, when you who died in sin have finally one day risen with the Christ, then you feel the spark of life again within you. And as you look around you, you see that all of these people have done nothing more than you have done at some time or other in this life, or in some life, and your heart bleeds for them. And you want to cry because you are one with all humanity. You cannot see any difference, and you know that to the last breath of your life, you will use that breath, you will use your energy, your intelligence, to serve God and to try to take all of his children back to Him. None will be denied.